Current location:	kwarto
Current mood:	nodame is love.
Current music:	wala eh.

what.
haha. lately, i've been thinking about how boring my life has been. boring in relation to supernatural happenings and RPG-ish adventures.

i have actually been thinking that maybe that's why people tend to love, because life is boring if you just live everyday without excitement. but if someone wouldn't be able to have such feelings, then he must be the busiest person in the world. even haggard college students have their craving for a little excitement in life.

and frankly, i may be one of them. just watching more shoujo anime (targeted to girl audiences, usually love stories), i have suddenly realized that i also want to experience my own version of a shoujo anime. Another symptom is that i bought an obsolete copy of shoujo beat that contained a few such stories in manga format. fuuuuck. and i usually buy shounen jump. T_T

could this be... what?

but then again, i have sort of pledged to myself that i can't fall in love yet. YET. haha. there are so much things to be busy with. maybe i should just face them with the same overacting enthusiasm anime characters have towards cooking, baseball, and even microbes.

I have never thought that being overexposed to so much excitement all my life will lead to my numbness to simple, everyday things that most people label as 'inspirational'.

Life has been sucked out of me. I want superpowers.

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それに、自分に約束をしたんだ。ほかのだれかを愛する前に、

私の本の気持ちを
はっきりに
伝えます。きっと伝えられるわよ。

でも、今やちょっと。。。まだはずかしいので
ちゃんと待って。。。ね？

アマテラス様。

無事になりますように。